Not like I dont mean to blog anymore...

I just cant blog anything right now. Rather I'm quite torn in between what I feel and think is right opposing with what my family thinks and feels is right. Of course, I suppose I aint the only one who has to go through this ordeal. But somehow or rather I feel others are making it on the right track better than I am plus they also have the financial stability to do so.

Sometimes I ask myself, if it's all really worth it. Being an adult. Being free. Being liberated from my family. Being out on my own. Would the very fact that I attempt to do these things result in my being inhumane and uncompassionate towards my family. Uncaring to the fact that they need me by their side just like I need them at the moment. And can I actually say that by cutting them off, I have done the best thing for me. What about them then? Am I being ungrateful.

I get lost too much when I question everything. Is it better not to question anything and blindly follow the path that my parents think is right. What about my own path? How does one determine what one does is the RIGHT thing.

It's been a while, dear friend.

*wipes all the dust from her blog*

It's not to say that I don't blog anymore. It's just life keeps interfering with me writing, and what more with my mom coming down... I really don't know what else I can blog anymore. I mean, unlike other girls, I'm not supposed to say ANYTHING about my family problem. Even if it kills me, I can't say anything. *sigh*

She's coming down on the 15th, so that's next week... kinda a dreaded moment for me as I have no idea what to do or expect from her. I no longer have a job, I meant I lost the opportunity so I have nothing much to occupy the space I need to get away from the stress. Not to say that I'd rather want to get away than spend time with her but spending too much time with her always happens to be bad for the both of us. I just don't want to have more problems. That's all.

Nothing

Just plain nothing. I doubt it's stress. Perhaps depression.
No idea what to write. Maybe it's the exams. Or maybe it's my subjects.
I wanna fly in the sky... so high~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There's dust all over. I'm feeling sad. More news, the better.
My life is uneventful though save but a spiralling descent of similiar events that repeat over and over again.

I feel like mom. XP

This is of course, a nothing rambling post.

FC2 English Information Center No1. World Heritage Site I want to visit.

FC2 English Information Center No1. World Heritage Site I want to visit.

Europe. I want to see the living arts, fashion, and architecture. It's the only place that will fulfill my dreams.

Today

So. Today is one of those days I'm also bored and speechless.
Mentally can't figure out if I can even hand in my assignment. (Doubt it)
Annoyed to death by the sound of my laptop fan which has started making ticking sounds.
Annoyed to death by my laptop crashing constantly.
Annoyed to death that I can't find my Nikon promo disc to edit pictures.
Annoyed to death that the books I need were checked out.
Annoyed to death that some of the photos I took were horrid because of lighting. It never showed up initially on the freaking screen.
Mentally stupid enough to go and google people I haven't talked with for 5/6 years now.

*nods head*
Yeah, today's a boring day. *Sigh*

On other news, I have my picks of pictures that I enjoy.