One more week of torture

  11, 2011 20:48
Go. Don't go. Go. Don't go.
I over analyze too much.
Yeah. I got it.

Been doing some thinking for the past few days and the idea of going to Japan is exhilarating. Exciting in every way and manner indeed. But it terrifies me. For once, I might actually be closer to grasping my dream. Do I... want to take a chance at my dream yet risk all I have in Australia for it. I'm not saying, of course, that I'd actually even have a chance to stay here permanently in Australia. That would be nice but highly unlikely that I might even be able to stay here longer than another year or 2 or so. But at least everything is much more stable down here. I've got a good network of friends that are helping me as I go and well, no trouble with the language barriers or anything. Plus the money... financially is good. I mean, who would ever not want to work a job that doesn't pay well?

Yet, Japan embodies everything I want beyond being a simple housewife which, "OH MY GOD!", I cannot imagine myself as being a docile housewife. The more I consider my idea of working in Japan, the more I begin seeing myself as someone who can't really stay still in one spot. Maybe Jon Sern is right. I have a bit of a restless air about me. I want to travel and see the world. I want to experience everything. Can I really imagine myself staying tied down to one spot? In Japan, I don't know. In Australia, yes.

It's weird. It's not like I can't make up my mind. I'm just too intimidated by the idea of how badly my choices can go wrong. It terrifies me to no end. T^T

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2011,11.11 (Fri)  22:07
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aww kriz~~ *hug* there answer is quite clear. Japan has always been your dream so seize that opportunity!! it might sound scary but i'm sure you can adapt to the lifestyle. besides japan has so much to offer. no matter where you go, i wont be too far away (facebook./msn XD) besides. i'm sure they pay better than here.

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2011,11.17 (Thu)  08:06
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> aww kriz~~ *hug* there answer is quite clear. Japan has always been your dream so seize that opportunity!! it might sound scary but i'm sure you can adapt to the lifestyle. besides japan has so much to offer. no matter where you go, i wont be too far away (facebook./msn XD) besides. i'm sure they pay better than here.

*laughs* dear anonymous (because people have obviously forgot to include their names in the name column prior to commenting on it~ LOLS! Funny and definitely cheers me up), <3 they do pay a certain amount. It roughly comes up to like $3000 AUD or so? But friends are here... and being able to SEE you guys physically... is something I quite love. So... yeah.

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